If you were expecting an entry yesterday, sorry. I didn't feel like sitting there in an internet cafe last night racking my brains for an entry when there was an entire city around me that needed to be walked through and looked at. I developed writer's block and had to leave. That's the one problem with me feeling better again--I can't sit still.
Several people have suggested that the apparently rude behavior by an elderly British gentleman was actually because he "liked" me. Now I have to hold that in extreme disregard. I'm sure nobody goes to Cambodia to hit on oversized, middle-aged Western women. I'm also sure that my arrogant standoffishness, my abrasively grim mindset and my stony apathy, combined with the strong likelihood of my already being attached, do not make me much of a prospect. A cute, smiling Khmer girl I ain't.
On the other hand, rather than continue the charade of rudeness, the elderly British gentleman has since contrived a charade of niceness by continuing to ask me awkward questions in between class times. I kind of thought he was plotting against me...but maybe the others are right, who knows?
On the other hand, rather than continue the charade of rudeness, the elderly British gentleman has since contrived a charade of niceness by continuing to ask me awkward questions in between class times. I kind of thought he was plotting against me...but maybe the others are right, who knows?
This is probably the right time to note, there is a psychological disease prevalent amongst Western expats here that I have best heard described as "Delusional Hotness Syndrome". Those who spend their free time in girly bars know about this. To a degree, even I know about it, because for some reason the local men here are very friendly with me...TOO friendly. Normally, in every other country on earth, the menfolk keep away from me--so I can tell you, living in this country is bound to distort anyone's field of reality.
My only question is, Just who is delusional about whom in this particular situation?
Some days you just gotta wonder about people.
My only question is, Just who is delusional about whom in this particular situation?
Some days you just gotta wonder about people.
*I used that picture of Zanarkand because it looks like Phnom Penh, okay? Not because I like Final Fantasy X. Okay?
I never knew Phnom Penh looks like a sci-fi city...cool!
ReplyDeleteIt sort of does. As I was playing Final Fantasy X, I kept thinking, "CRAP, this city looks like Phnom Penh, if Phnom Penh were in the future...!" So I used it as a backdrop in that picture.
ReplyDeleteIt also represents the awe and joy in my mind...for some reason no one ever picks up on my awe and joy, but it is there.
can you post more about the delusional hotness syndrome? like maybe elaborate or add funny stories about it or something? thanks =)
ReplyDeletelol and since when was 29 middle aged?
ReplyDeleteYeah, maybe I can do that. Twenty-nine is middle aged when you've got thyroid trouble and feel "tired" by 10 pm.
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