I'll update you on the 10 months between this September (2016) and last December shortly. For now, let me press on with the more relevant stories.
So, something awful happened to me, and I don't know how. I don't mean awful like the death of my father, my depressive episode, the psychopath, robbery, or years of a demoralizing illness. I mean awful like how your body would be after enduring all these things over a 5-year period. Self-neglect, right?
Yes, likely from my own self-negligence during these terrible times. First figure in how utterly shitty I felt on a daily basis from my thyroid, and how low depression had me... I mean, it was hard for me to take care of myself for years on end, and I forgot what feeling normal even felt like.
Literally forgot. I thought it was normal for me to
- feel depressed
- lack an appetite
- look like shit (I mean both my bodily appearance and my personal care)
- have zero energy
- never feel fully rested
- have disturbed sleep patterns
- never be able to concentrate, on anything. EVER.
I told myself I was "just getting old", especially when the doctor said "aging" was behind many of my physical changes--I kept finding brown spots, grey hair, thinning hair, increasingly pronounced nail ridges, bad skin, you name it.
I would sit there on my father's sofa for days on end, just lost in nothingness and melancholy, without the energy to get up and be productive, without the appetite to bother getting a meal. I couldn't consolidate myself, and it didn't matter because what did I have to do anyway?
When my complexion became...not jaundiced, not ashen...but some ghastly thing in between...and friends began to comment that I needed "color" in my cheeks (I normally have a ruddy complexion)...and I don't know exactly how long this had been going on, because it merged with every other trouble I've had...I began wondering if I was anemic and should take iron.
So I went to the vitamin store. There were no iron pills, so I picked up "women's" tablets since they were the only thing with more than 100% iron.
They also had a variety of of other abundant vitamins in the formula, including the vitamin B complex. (It's the one on the end in that photo down there..."Ultra Woman".)
And about 3 to 4 days after I started taking them, I suddenly had my youthful energy back, a raging appetite, my complexion began to clear...etc.
Having done the research, I am pretty sure I was at least somewhat deficient in B-vitamins. Not sure which one, but if you're missing one, you're likely missing several. I have done everything that leads to deficiency over the years (besides alcoholism)--thyroid problems and possible absorbtion difficulties, living off of antacids and acid-blockers for years, improper eating (I lived off McDonald's and candy in Japan)...you name it, I did it to myself. And I had certainly been craving B-rich foods for the last year--green leafy things and lean meats...none of which I'd eaten in about 2 years.
I'm currently waiting to see if I can reverse my grey hair and melasma. The ridges on my nails began to diminish the day I started taking vitamins.
Guys, take care of your health.
So, something awful happened to me, and I don't know how. I don't mean awful like the death of my father, my depressive episode, the psychopath, robbery, or years of a demoralizing illness. I mean awful like how your body would be after enduring all these things over a 5-year period. Self-neglect, right?
Yes, likely from my own self-negligence during these terrible times. First figure in how utterly shitty I felt on a daily basis from my thyroid, and how low depression had me... I mean, it was hard for me to take care of myself for years on end, and I forgot what feeling normal even felt like.
Literally forgot. I thought it was normal for me to
- feel depressed
- lack an appetite
- look like shit (I mean both my bodily appearance and my personal care)
- have zero energy
- never feel fully rested
- have disturbed sleep patterns
- never be able to concentrate, on anything. EVER.
I told myself I was "just getting old", especially when the doctor said "aging" was behind many of my physical changes--I kept finding brown spots, grey hair, thinning hair, increasingly pronounced nail ridges, bad skin, you name it.
I would sit there on my father's sofa for days on end, just lost in nothingness and melancholy, without the energy to get up and be productive, without the appetite to bother getting a meal. I couldn't consolidate myself, and it didn't matter because what did I have to do anyway?
When my complexion became...not jaundiced, not ashen...but some ghastly thing in between...and friends began to comment that I needed "color" in my cheeks (I normally have a ruddy complexion)...and I don't know exactly how long this had been going on, because it merged with every other trouble I've had...I began wondering if I was anemic and should take iron.
So I went to the vitamin store. There were no iron pills, so I picked up "women's" tablets since they were the only thing with more than 100% iron.
They also had a variety of of other abundant vitamins in the formula, including the vitamin B complex. (It's the one on the end in that photo down there..."Ultra Woman".)
And about 3 to 4 days after I started taking them, I suddenly had my youthful energy back, a raging appetite, my complexion began to clear...etc.
Having done the research, I am pretty sure I was at least somewhat deficient in B-vitamins. Not sure which one, but if you're missing one, you're likely missing several. I have done everything that leads to deficiency over the years (besides alcoholism)--thyroid problems and possible absorbtion difficulties, living off of antacids and acid-blockers for years, improper eating (I lived off McDonald's and candy in Japan)...you name it, I did it to myself. And I had certainly been craving B-rich foods for the last year--green leafy things and lean meats...none of which I'd eaten in about 2 years.
I'm currently waiting to see if I can reverse my grey hair and melasma. The ridges on my nails began to diminish the day I started taking vitamins.
Guys, take care of your health.
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| I am now a vitamin addict. The full spectrum of health. |
